Now and Then by Troublefollows Edward
Right now, she can't remember. He can't forget or let go. Then, she fell in love fast and hard. So did he. Can the heart remember what the mind has forgotten? Edward can only hope. Rated: Fiction M
Review by: FictionFreak95
The back of my neck is slick with sweat. The heat in this club makes my T-shirt cling to my skin. I finish off my beer, but it does nothing to quench my thirst or help relieve the tension in my shoulders. The music hurts my ears. It's too loud and the bass is turned up too high. I can feel it in my chest and inside my head like it's banging my brain against my skull. I know all about brains and skulls and the two of them colliding.
More than I ever wanted to know.
Ya got that right, Edward.
When TroubleFollows1017 starts a story off like this, you know it’s gonna suck you in. She always has this way of capturing your full attention right off the bat in her stories and with “Now and Then”, she does not disappoint.
Trouble takes us on a whirlwind journey between two rock stars with very different lives. He’s fast and furious, she’s a bit more “controlled” by the powers that be. Not that there isn’t a rebel inside that sweet girl somewhere. Bella certainly wants to do her own thing but she’s torn between breaking free, and not wanting to make too many waves.
The two of them fall in love hard and true when Bella’s mother (and manager) books Edwards band as the opening act for Bella’s US tour. The only problem? Bella’s mother does not like Edward. At all. So the two find themselves hiding away in hotel rooms, stealing kisses (along with … other things) and creating a relationship façade between Edward and Bella’s sister Rose to throw Mom’s scent off of the blissful couple.
When push comes to shove (aka, Edward can’t take the lies anymore), Bella agrees to tell her mother everything (and when I say everything, I mean, I can’t tell you what else because that would completely ruin your Now and Then experience) but before she has the chance to, a horrible accident occurs and Bella’s memory is washed away, taking everything that she and Edward had together right along with it.
It’s absolutely heartbreaking to watch Edward, through the “Now” chapters, try and keep his distance when the love of his life is moving on with hers.
I push off the wall and order something stronger than beer at the bar. A double. I need something to numb the ache that starts in my chest and radiates out to every other part of my body. My heart's been damaged and continues circulating this burning pain through my veins. You'd think I'd be used to it by now since it's my constant companion, but somehow that shit never gets old. It waxes and wanes but never goes away. And it always hits me hardest when I know she needs me and there's nothing I can do about it.
My phone buzzes in my pocket. It's probably Jasper. It didn't take him long to figure out I wasn't where I said I was going to be. That means he knows I'm here and he'll be coming to get me. White Teeth hands her a drink and she tries to wave it away, but he insists. She shouldn't be drinking, but there's no one here to look out for her. No one but me, and I have to stay put. If I don't, I'll do something stupid like I did in Cincinnati. Jasper will never forgive me if I do a repeat of Cincinnati.
What makes it even more difficult to watch him go through the tour as nothing more than an observer, is Bella’s POV in the “Then” chapters. To see how in love they were, how happy, even with all the bullshit going on with her mother (and there is some serious bullshit going on, let me tell you), they still manage to just be so perfect together.
"Have you ever met someone and just...connected? Right away? Instantly?" I ask. My body is pressed up against his. I slide a leg in between his. His heart is beating as fast as mine. I can feel it beating fast and furious. His body is warm and I want to crawl inside. There's something about him that makes me feel like he'd protect me, hide me, shelter me. Maybe I'm crazy.
"Never. Until today," he whispers. His hands slip under my shirt and softly touch the skin just above my jeans. His fingertips are rough, calloused from playing guitar, and I want to feel them touch me everywhere.
"Me either," I admit. "I swear I don't bring all my opening acts in here."
He laughs and I can feel his breath on my neck as he bends his head lower. "Good to know."
I let my hands move up his chest, around his neck. I breathe him in. Mom will never let this go any further if she finds out. I'm going to have to make sure she never finds out. Because I want this. I want him. For once, I want something that's just mine.
He could be mine.
"I'm gonna try to not overthink this, whatever this is," he says as his hands travel lower over my ass, pulling me closer.
"What do you think this is?" I practically pant.
I can feel him hard and eager against my hip. "The start of something beautiful."
His mouth covers mine and our tongues play along. He tastes as good as he smells and almost as good as he feels. He probably doesn't believe me, but I have never done anything like this in my entire life. I don't play outside the fence or color outside the lines. I do what I'm told and I follow the rules. Rules that suffocate and hold me back. Rules that were made to control and confine. But Edward Cullen sets me free. I want to be free. I need to be free.
I will be free.
But like every story of Trouble’s, she gives us hope. A light somewhere inside our hearts that very aptly tells us, everything’s going to be okay, because true love always fucking conquers, dammit.
"You won't hurt me." Bella holds my face in her hands. "You'd never hurt me. Please, make me remember who I am."
With only a couple more chapters to go in this story, I can honestly say I certainly hope it does. Or I might need to hurt the woman. (not really. I love her too much to hurt her.)
In closing, run, do not walk to your nearest computer and if you’re not already enriching your life with the words of this beautiful, extremely talented lady, do it now.
With no regrets.
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